I am not promoting self harm and eating disorders. At the moment this is just my way to survive.
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    every time I’m drunk I go to Amazon and buy a new CD… this time it’s Headstones - Love + Fury, I regret nothing :)

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    Sober again, back to my break from everything… ^^#

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from Toxic Parents by Susan Forward 


    from Toxic Parents by Susan Forward 

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    Everything is fine… I had some good days and now I’m back at the bottom… fat, drunk again, nothing works, nothing is okay, nothing will ever be okay… I wish I could just erase myself…

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    I will ignore my Tumblr for some time, need to concentrate on other things :)

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    The Crematorium by Dimitar Tzvetanov

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    growing up sucks because you realize $1000 isn’t a lot of money

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    I’m done with this. No more alcohol, no more coffein pills, no more beating myself up for every little thing I did and feel. If I go out alcohol will be okay but not until I have blackouts or need 2 days to recover.
    12 years of treating myself like I’m the worst person on this planet and destroying everything I ever had and loved is enough, I can’t do this anymore. This concept of myself was never meant to be the way it is now, it was what other people told me and I suffered and believed it for way too long.

    And no, this won’t lead to happiness in one minute, this means war against everything I ever believed about myself, but I don’t want to be like this until the end of my time.

    I will start with telling myself every day how beautiful my ears are, the only thing I like on my body ^^#

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    Here’s the First Look at the New Satanic Monument Being Built for Oklahoma’s Statehouse

    In January the Satanic Temple announced plans to erect a monument glorifying the Dark Lord on the front lawn of the Oklahoma Statehouse. An Indiegogo campaign was launched with what seemed like a somewhat lofty goal of $20,000, but by the time donations ended almost $30,000 had been raised. Now an artist trained in classical sculpture is toiling away in New York, crafting a Baphomet figure sitting beneath a pentagram and flanked by two children gazing upward in loyalty. When it is finished, it will be cast in bronze and, the Satanists hope, eventually displayed in Oklahoma.

    The statue is a direct response to the state’s installation of a Ten Commandments monument outside the Capitol in 2012. State Representative Mike Ritze paid for the controversial statue with his own money, and therefore it was considered a donation and OK to place on government property. Following that line of reasoning, the Satanic Temple submitted a formal application for their monument.

    As Trait Thompson of the Oklahoma Capitol Preservation Commission told CNN last December, “Individuals and groups are free to apply to place a monument or statue or artwork.” The applications are then approved or rejected by the Commission. Unfortunately, the state has placed a halt on issuing permits for any other monuments until a lawsuit filed by the ACLU against Ritze’s Commandments monument is settled.


    I’m laughing so hard I love this I’m so happy

    This is a hilarious underlining of separation of church and state. Why should one religion be accepted on public grounds but not another?

    Maybe bigots will stop being xenophobic towards other religions and cultures if they’re shown that Christianity doesn’t get a free pass or that only Christianity is supported.

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    Something about the magical “thigh gap”

    I have one. I’m at a healthy weight and I still would have a thigh gap if I would gain another 7 kg.
    Why I’m writting this? I’m so tired of this thigh gap bashing. I can’t do anything about mine, I have wide hips and my bones sit far apart and I would trade my thigh gap for smaller hips in a heartbeat but I can’t. Even one of my parents told me that I can’t wear leggings because I have “bow legs” and this is so fucked up. This is my body type, this is how my bones are grown, these are the fucked up genes my parents provided me with, I can’t change anything. So just don’t comment on other people’s bodies, it’s none of your business and you don’t know what you trigger with your comments. It might be well intended if a guy tells me that I have nice curves but I will break his neck and I won’t leave the house for a week because I hate my body and telling me that I have curves will make me feel huge… (and no, I don’t want to have sex with you even if you made the afford to think about a compliment…)

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